Before I get into my wrap up, I want to update about our vacation and get some advice from my readers. As a teen, I seriously loved the ocean. I never saw myself getting married and staying in the mountains. I considered the Coast Guard. I considered dolphin assisted human therapy. Heck, because I didn’t know any better, I even considered Sea World. Just anything to get me close to the ocean and to the creatures in the ocean.
I met my husband when I was sixteen and by the time I was eighteen, we were married and expecting our first child together. I gave up my dreams and I learned to fall in love with the mountains. Truly, for the last seventeen years, I’ve been relatively happy with mountain living. But, I’ve not been happy with how big my “small town” is getting. With a population of 17,000 for the city our address states (because our town doesn’t have its own postal services) and 3,994 in our part of town, crime is on the rise. I don’t like it.
In addition to crime, I’m highly allergic to pine trees and I live in the mountains. Great, huh? I wake every single morning of my life with a headache, a nose that is stuffy yet draining, itchy eyes and I live under a cloud of constant fatigue.
So, we vacationed at the beautiful town of Ocean Isle, NC. Population: 582. Even the week of the fourth, it wasn’t crazy crowded.
Being back reminded me of all the feelings I had as a teen. How badly I wanted to be at the ocean. I said nothing to my husband but just like the last time I was at the beach twenty years ago—I felt better. I can breathe. Not one headache while I was there. My joint pain is improved. I could sleep there. No tinnitus (ringing in my ears) or scratchy throat. More importantly, Arie had very little joint pain there. She played hard and she slept. My sixteen year old’s POTS symptoms improved and her joint pain. Her fatigue was greatly improved. Blood pressure at home— 90/49, blood pressure there, 109/65—a change which caused her to have much more energy. Yes, she has flared badly since we arrived back home yesterday.
In addition, my husband has been unhappy. There is very little growth here financially. My husband makes more as a furniture worker than most here but with six children it’s often not enough. We’re scraping by to make it. That median where we get no help from the state but often struggle to meet all our needs.
He’s always been interested in Real Estate but we’ve had no real motivation to do it. Partly because of how stagnant things feel here and how stifled we feel. We always have and it affected his happiness more than mine. He’s easily stressed. He feels trapped.
Several days into our trip he dropped the bomb that “This feels like home” and I don’t mean the county where we currently live. I mean home—the place where your heart feels happy.
Being there brought all those feelings back for me too but until he expressed it—I said nothing. I just kept my thoughts to myself. Now? I want to explore the idea of him actually going into a real estate business. I want to pursue it here—paying off debt and then moving.
All that to ask this of you—my blog followers who have stuck through and read this long post…
Would you want to see posts about my personal thoughts and dreams HERE or on another site? I feel like this is my BOOK space and not my dream space. I also am interested in getting back into the full swing of my crafting and opening a shop. One filled with my ocean themed photography, jewelry and the like. An endeavor to pour all money made in that shop into our dream. I also don’t want the family to really know our plans. I’d say most don’t even read these wrap-ups so I hid my thoughts here. A second blog would be kept secret from the family and then those that I’ve made friends with here will have a place to keep up with my more personal things.
Now, moving along, I promise!
New on the Blog (Week 26)
- [25 Jun] Weekly Wrap Up: Week 25
- [25 Jun] I’VE BEEN NOMINATED | BLOGGER RECOGNITION AWARD
- [26 Jun] Goodreads Monday
- [27 Jun] The Girl Who Could See|Spotlight
- [27 Jun] The Girl Who Could See by Kara Swanson ★★★★
- [28 Jun] Israel – God’s Heart by Ron Gafni, Kathleen Barrett ★★★★
- [29 Jun] Wings of the Wind (Out from Egypt #3) by Connilyn Cossette ★★★★½
- [1 Jul] Unblemished by Sara Ella ★
New on the Blog (Week 27)
- [3 Jul] Goodreads Monday
- [4 Jul] The Gift by Wanda E. Brunstetter ★★★★
- [5 Jul] Hey, You! The Christian Book Blogger…
- [6 Jul] The Photograph by Beverly Lewis ★★½
- [7 Jul] Light of Dawn by Vannetta Chapman ★★★★★
- [8 Jul] The Christmas Bus by Melody Carlson ★★★★★
- 11 Jul: The Writing Desk by Rachel Hauck
- 12 Jul: Dragon Seed by Marty Machowski
- 13 Jul: His Guilt by Shelley Shepard Gray
- 14 Jul: A Patchwork Christmas Collection by Judith Mccoy Miller,Nancy Moser,Stephanie & Grace Whitson
Goals for this Week